NISSA :]

2008-09-26T21:24:00.001+08:00

Bye.

2008-09-22T21:29:00.000+08:00

Livejournal's lagging so badly,its even slower than my grandma's walking pace.Goodness gracious.

2008-06-20T11:37:00.003+08:00

Moved far away.

2008-05-01T20:05:00.002+08:00

Happy 1st May and Happy Labour Day :) Got woken up at 11am by brother,just when I thought I could stay home and sleep till afternoon/evening.Bathed and headed down to Grandma's house.Cousins,Aunt(s),Uncle(s),Grandma and Grandpa.I luv my Family! :) I saw a picture of twin and I when we were two years old.We look so much alike and Twin has a mat hair.Hahaha,as in Malay Mat.I couldnt stop calling her that ever since.Math Paper One and Two tomorrow.Two (goddamn) hours for both.How how how am I to scrap through both papers.Four hours of Math in a day is just plain torture.I need a plan plan plan.

2008-04-30T15:51:00.003+08:00

HAPPY SIXTEENTH VANESSA!(ILY!<3)

Social paper was horrible.Section A was supposedly about Globalization and I had no clue about it and only realized after the paper when everyone was talking about it.Section B was okay,I hope it wasnt utter rubbish,cause it somewhat made sense to me.Biology paper would be a breeze if I actually studied for it and so,it wasnt really a breeze since I didnt study.Only managed to get Chapter14 and fell asleep after.Math remedial class and McDonalds and home after.No skool no skool tmrw!(: Happy Sixteenth Vanessa,I'll love you always <3

2008-04-29T15:52:00.002+08:00

Time: 3.56pm

I said I will study ytd and (believe it or not),I did.With occasional break that lastest more than 5-10 mins.Im proud to say,Im left with less than a chapter till the end.And Im only talking about Social.I decided to give Biology a miss because,with Physics,I'll still fail Science so (ha ha),no point to study it actually.I need/want/must pass Humanities.Because I like Geography and h8 Social but still am planning to pass them both.No A2 for MidYears because of last minute studying but A2 for N's?Possible,I hope.Centrepoint for Vanessa's balloon and back to school.Supposedly to surprise her with it but failed.But anyway,thank you Joyce for helping :D Okay,Plan is to finish Social,re-read,and browse through Biology.I hope I can do it (:

2008-04-28T17:38:00.003+08:00

Time: 5.38pm

I covered half a chapter of Social on Globalization.Told myself countless time Im going to have a sleepless night.But,I ended up fast asleep on my bed after 45 minutes.Thats how boring oh boring Social can get.Even with chocolate/sweets,I fell asleep.Social and Bio's this Wednesday and Im only half done with both.Math is also this Friday.This is torture,pure horrible torture.Captain's ball(s) (HAHAHA,Felicia) for PE today,little bit of soccer and volleyball.Super early recess.Oral mock test for English and Math remedial after.I got to leave early :D Dental and Im nearly done with it (: I need to study SS,and this time,no procrastinating cause I know I can do it.(HAHAHAHAH)

2008-04-23T16:22:00.004+08:00

Time: 4.23pm

I got home before 3.30pm and thats such an accomplishment.Due to heavy horrible really square bag,I was too lazy to eat Lunch and headed straight back home.Horrible weather + super heavy bag = Annoyed.So I got annoyed with everything around me.Even when I press the lift button and the lift dosent comes down asap.(Hahaha).Im no more annoyed and Im rather kool with everything now.But nothing beats the start of today.First of all,we had to run in pinafore and blouse,6 rounds around the track and if that wasnt bad already,CME was taken over by Math,again.I swear,Ms Yap is just out to kill and bombard us with Math math math and more math.She expects and A1 from us,but ha ha,I'll give her F9.If that wasnt really bad enough,today's lesson just seem so dull and boring.I tried my best to stay away during SS and not dose off.But it was all good during Recess.McFly,Busted=Banana Milkshake,McFlurry(Get it).ClareClare's in love with a book character that isnt real and claims he's so hot because he's a Vampire.(Edward Cullen,Twilight).Hahaha!I srsly thank god for such retarded friends.If it wasnt for them,I'd probably die in school or h8 school.

Mid's start tomorrow.Maybe its really time for me to get off and do some work.Maybe its time for me to start working hard.Maybe its time for me to get back home early for 3 weeks (only) and it'll all be over and I wont regret.Maybe its time for me to stop saying all that and do nothing.Ha ha,Im such a procrastinator.I should be sued for this.It havent even started and Im already thinking of after exams.Yeah,IJ Fiestaaaa(:

2008-04-22T20:47:00.002+08:00

Time: 8.48pm

Tuesday treated me pretty well today.VictoriaChewRuiYi is such an entertainment during Geog class.She makes stupid remarks and says stupid things that can actually make me laugh for a whole solid 2-3 minutes.I got send out of Math class for a good whole two periods.Tiring but beats sitting in class and stoning and killing braincells.Vanessa kept on looking outside the window,as if telling me/us she'd rather be standing with us than sitting inside.Probably she was envious of us.Hahaha!

Good luck to all those starting their Mid years.Ive got one more day to prepare for English whose comprehension I cant stop failing by 1-3 marks.Im such a bloody pathetic child.

2008-04-21T18:16:00.003+08:00

Time: 6.16pm
Hours: 0 hours on vid.
Im so proud of myself,I refrained from going to Youtube and do what Ive been doing for the past few days.FN research isnt due today,in a matter of fact,its not due anytime soon.Only after the exams are over = next next week.Yet again,another night that I spend doing research(and Youtube) gone to waste.Monday treated me pretty well.I didnt feel like falling asleep and I wasnt bored to death in any class,including Math.I like Algebra and only Algebra :) Never thought I would say that but yes,I did.Surprisingly,FN theory lesson didnt bore me too.Im so very shock.(Chicken+MilkTea) with Vanessa after school at Bishan and walked around.She hinted to me she likes balloon(s).(Hahaha),nice try Vanessa.I already plan what to get for you & Pearlyn :) Dad's coming home from Indonesia tmrw,what I wanted,was out of stock ): How bloody sad.I guess,I'll just have to be a good girl and actually s.a.v.e for what I want.Mid's starts this week.No more huhuhaha,studystudy(too late,I know,shutup).

2008-04-20T01:58:00.008+08:00

Time: 2.01am
Hours: 9 hours on vid.
I broke my own personal record.Think 43 videos in 9 hours with little rest and toilet breaks.My eyes are dead heavy.I ended up not doing FN.I shall rush through it tomorrow.Tomorrow tomorrow,I wont procrastinate any more/longer.Youtube is such a sin.

Time: 3.44pm
Hours: 3 hours on vid.
Im multi-tasking.Im both on Youtube and doing FN Research.Did I tell you I got 2/8 for that damn research which wasnt worth my effort.I cant tolerate it anymore.I feel like dropping it.Pros and cons.I've been typing the word 'eggs' for the 4284294th time now.I dont like FN. Sucksucksucksucksucksucksucksucksucksucksucksucksucksucksucksucksucksucks!

Time: 10.01pm
Hours: 4 hours on vid.
Im getting more and more insane.I had breaks in between those vid.Cousins and Aunts came over to visit Grandma.Surprised Aunt with cake.Its her 45th Birthday tomorrow so Happy Birthday! Monday tomorrow and I need to finish FN research by today/tonight.Its between (1) Another sleepless night or (2) I'll just give up and go to bed option today.Clearly number (2)'s appealing to me very much.1000 points for guessing what Ive been Youtube-ing on.Hahahaha.

2008-04-19T18:44:00.003+08:00

Its a Saturday and I had to wake up at 6am.Bathed and headed down to the Airport to send Dad,Aunt,Grandma and Grandpa off to Indonesia.Had MacDonalds breakfast and home and slept till 5.Its a Saturday and I coincidentally am wearing my jersey which I wore a week ago to a Dragon Boating Competition that got me scared to death early in the morning but it all ended up all good and jolly :) I felt guilty skipping remedial class(with parents permission).But then again,I doubt I would not gain anything even if I went for it.Which is as good as not going.Ha ha,Im such a screwed up child.And Im only making myself feel better.(Ha ha).Go do your FN now,Nissa.

2008-04-18T23:03:00.004+08:00

Happy Sixteenth Birthday Thanananananananananana!

Today is a ha ha happy day.Its Friday and I gained 5 bucks without doing anything.School was particularly boring today.I didnt feel sleepy today but I slept during Physics which bored the shit out of me.Math re-test was a disaster,it's as good as not having a retest.Listening compre for MT and only realised it was for Midyears while it was going to start.(Plan 1) was to sleep and wake up just in time for the repeat.(Plan 2) was to listen and sleep at the repeat.I decided to go for (Plan 2) since it was much much safer.It's between (Airport to send Dad & Grandma & Grandpa & Aunt off to Indonesia) or (SS & Geog extra class in school which obviously wont do any help to me) for tomorrow's plan.Okaay,hard decision.Pros and Cons,state & elaborate your points and whats not.Ha ha,SocialStudies suck big time.

2008-04-17T18:15:00.004+08:00

I dont like Thursdays.We end late and the lessons we have are dead boring.Im surprised because I didnt feel like sleeping for the past 4(including today) days.If tomorrow,I wont feel sleepy,I broke my own record for not feeling sleepy in class.Basically,lessons before Recess was boring.Bio(first period) was awesomexzx,since MsNg didnt come and laoshi replaced her.Bio(second period) was math,MsYap just had to come in and revise on Bearings.Well,I drew stickman/women with Sawa and made up stories.Friday tomorrow ha ha happy day.Tuition's such a spoiler.Mids are in 6 days time and Im not prepared.I havent study,no motivation(reasons) ha ha,Im a pathetic child who deserves to be flown over to Antartica(okaay,no).

2008-04-16T18:57:00.002+08:00

I luv Wednesday.Because there are not much to study and ha ha,I dont pay attention.Had the School Invasion Tour for assembly today and every class was exceptionally early,earlier than any other assembly we have to attend.Mother Tongue Oral was a screw up.I read monotone-ly and didnt go into further details when I was asked questions.I smiled widely as a sign that I've ended my sentence and said 'ya'.I had a hard time trying to translate words.BK with Fatin & Anisa after and had thumbwar match in the train and ha ha,I won.Im the Champion.Anisa's the lousiest.Ha ha,I need to do FN.FN sucks.Ha ha.

2008-04-15T15:14:00.002+08:00

Today didnt feel like Tuesday.I felt awake in all classes again and this is 2nd time Im feeling like this.I usually dread Tuesdays,but today was exceptionally not dreadish.Math test was pure horrific and maybe,Im just born not to connect with numbers.Im home early,straight home after school because I just felt like going home early.And Im eating lunch at home after 94280460284 days.Ha ha,I saved 2$ today and it'll be g.o.n.e tomorrow.Mother tongue oral tmrw,I smell 'screwed' Do you?

2008-04-14T18:09:00.004+08:00

Ran my 2.4km tday and clocked 14mins plus and its no good.My leg decided to tense up at the 7th round and I perspired so much after.Good/bad?Idk.Ha ha,I felt awake in all classes tday and didnt feel like I could rot to death.Lunch at KFC with Van,Pearlyn(s),Kelly & Jiayi and then library with them after.I finally got my booooook :) I like Youtube cause it keeps me entertained when Im bored and all I Youtube on is McFly and talk about them to Kelly the next day in school.Ha ha,I need to study.I dont like studying and I want to go UK :)

Pretty Sexy Medal,you're mine now :)

2008-04-13T19:55:00.003+08:00

Downpour.Competition.Nervousness.Good luck wishes from friends/family(Thanks.Luv you guys<3)Anisa,Leong,Esther,Jiayi & Eunice came down(Thank you for coming down.Luv you guys<3).Heart shaped balloons.Prayers.Motivating each other.Before race starts nervousness.C division who did great.B division got into the finals.B division big boat came in first<3.No rest.B division small boat came in second<3 and lost to NJ by 1 sec.No regrets,happy thoughts.Prize presentation.B&C division Champions.Scream.Pictures.Dinner at Newton Circus.Noisy.Funny shit.Walked to Far East.Fried Mars Bars.Trained home.Happy Happy Day.
And with all this,I couldnt srsly couldnt have asked for anything else more

School tomorrow,Hello My pretty medals(if it dosent rain).2.4km tomorrow,I'll probably clock like 18mins or something.Ha ha ha,okay,I hope not.It Sunday and Im still a happy happy girl.

2008-04-12T08:51:00.003+08:00

I feel asleep way before I thought I would.I woke up at 7.00am feeling all nervous and horrified.I woke up saying 'Its the day,its the day,its finally the day' and couldnt get back to sleep after.Tried closing my eyes but the thought of the competition struck me and I decided to wake up.Messages came in with all the 'Good luck,All the best' wishes.I thank you all for it,I srsly do.I do think we need some luck now,its not that I dont think we can do it,I think we can.Only that accompanied by some luck from you guys would make it better.Oh you sweet child(s)<3 So now Im on and its going to be 9am.It'll be 2 hours from now till I get ready and mentally prepare myself for this day.Youtube has been accompanying me since just now,it keeps my mind off things.

I luv McFly x 6842936432965935962475926975

2008-04-11T21:17:00.002+08:00

We'll do it for IJ,We'll do it for Sharon and We'll do it for ourselves.And all we need to do is not give up.I guess,My countdown ends here,right now.This very moment.I'll come back tomorrow,with great news I hope.Im too scared to even blog or talk.I promise I'll give my best,I promise I wont give up and I promise I wont regret whatever the result is.I love my Team cause they're all my heroines<3

We'll do it,we can and we will.

2008-04-10T18:52:00.003+08:00

I literally was like a walking zombie this morning.I was so oblivious to my surroundings,I woke up,bathe,headed for school and barely turn around to look at something.Untill when I reach school,finally I snapped back to earth.Not enough sleep and no more energy did this to me.School was rather draggy,all I wanted to do was come home,bathe and sleep.Research and Decision Making due date has been brought back again,obviously one good thing.More time to do,more time to procrastinate.Ha ha ha.2 more days,Im paranoid and even more paranoid then ever.I get weird stomach feeling in the morning,every morning for this past few days.Lets hope,I dont puke on the competition day.

2008-04-09T21:29:00.004+08:00

Motivation Much?

Last training for this whole year,even though I h8 waking up early on a Saturday morning to make my way to Kallang and train under the hot sun,I'll miss it.I'll miss the bathing part,the training part and the whole entire atmosphere of it.4 years,it all ended just.like.that.Not mentioning,scolding and such baaaad race sets.But its not going to bring us down.Although having 1 more year in IJ,I doubt I'll ever be this committed to go for trainings next year.I'll definately miss the stupid acts of the Graduating Seniors this year.It'll be total difference without you guys,I'll horriblyterribly miss you guys ):

AlesiaCaitlinGianChiaYee is the most bimbotic bimbotic-est bimbo I've ever met.
'Omg,I broke my nail' While everyone else was just panting and gasping for air after a race set.Ha ha ha,you're such a joke.Oh & just to make everything else worst,we got to know we've got heats due to more schools joining this year,to get to the Finals or not and it's all happening on that day with means Im rowing (2+2=4) & (500mx4).But you know,anything for the Team.(Are you girls?No!)(Are you guys?No!)(Then what are you?Men!)Ha ha ha,such jokers,all the way Team<3

2008-04-08T17:15:00.002+08:00

Early in the morning,Laava twisted her knee and got send home.I had to get through class without her entertaining me.I h8 Tuesdays,majority of the subs are all 2 periods and I can barely stay awake for 30 mins.Surprisingly,I stayed awake and paid attention during Math & I even did my work.5-10 min of scribbling and drawing for NE's International Friendship Day because the deadline's today.Library in school with Esther to do 'FN' and home.I've been watching too much vid of Busted McFly and Jonas Brotherson Youtube because it keeps me entertained and I wont zone out infront of the computer.All hail Youtube.

2008-04-07T17:11:00.002+08:00

I wasted 1 hour of my time after school going for Math Revision Lesson.It actually dosent make a difference if I go for it or not,because one way or another,I do not pay attention.Ended up playing at th back of th class with Kelly & Laava and eventually she saw.Ha ha,I still had fun.Walked t th interchange and trained home.Im home early on a Monday.Mum must be proud of me or smth.

5 more days,Im even more paranoid then ever.Anyone volunteer t be online this Friday and accompany me on my journey as I get scared every 1 sec? Ha ha ha,I'll wish all th best t you.

2008-04-06T16:33:00.002+08:00

5 more days,Im paranoid.I stayed at home th whole day and did nothing productive.Ha ha my 6-8 points.I got my daily dose of Busted Jonas Brothers & McFly.Ha ha,Thank god for Youtube.I watched StepUp2 just now,same storyline,diff dance.Ha ha,Robert Hoffman's so hot :B I need t do FN now >(

2008-04-05T23:59:00.004+08:00

One Destiny Accepting Challenges.CHIJ Odac ftw(:
7 more days to Competition.One more training.Got scolding from Coach today.She wont be there on th race day and so we have to be independent and do things as a team.Had B div big boat suggestion time and air paddling.Everyone checking on each other and helping each other out.Oh,how I love my whole team :B Ha ha,Got jersey tday and Kc has somewhat th same colour as us :/ Its exactly one more week from now and Im scared t th end of my nerves.We'll do our best and the rest shall be lifted up unto you.

2008-04-04T22:26:00.002+08:00

School.Homework.Test.Teachers.Coursework.Training & Competition.
These few things kept me busy this whole entire week,I dont even rmber what I did on Monday.
I decided t motivate myself t study by writing 'I am going to get 6-8 points!' and paste it up on th wall above my study calender.I came home tday and saw 'Make sure you do it.You can do it * I'll get you what you want if you get 8 points' and 'Will support and help you' alongside with what I wrote.I could distinctively recognize whose attrocious handwriting it was.B.r.o.t.h.e.r.s.Im so touched till I teared.

2 more trainings,8 more days.Oh good lord.Trainings are getting better,we're getting more organized.I'll be reluctant t leave th Team that made me laugh so much everytime Im with them.Th best Team I've ever been in <3 Training tmrw,so,what have you got instored for us,coach?Bring.It.On.

2008-04-03T20:41:00.000+08:00

9 more days,2 more trainings.3mins33sec was th best set for us ystd and that was after shoutings and scoldings.All th way,IJ<3 Study session with LauHuiWen VickToad and Vanasah after school till 6++ due t th heavyheavy rain that made us not able t leave school.Hitched a ride t Interchange,Macs and trained home with LauHuiWen :B Physical Fitness Test tomorrow,standing broad jump,here I come.Eee,Sit & Reach ):

2008-04-01T19:23:00.003+08:00

Math quiz was a disaster.I never like all these math or anything that has got to do with numbers.Me and numbers,dont usually go well.I slept for like 15-20 mins and woke up just in time t realise she was walking down th row,so I made myself stay awake and punch in random number into th calculator and pretended t be doing.Vanessa constantly turned around,giving me th 'Fail lah fail lah' face.I can practically read her face expression.Laava on th other hand,gave me th 'Hah,Im going to fail' face.I dont know what class would be like without Vanessa's nonsense,Laava's joke,Pearlyn's 'smart' idea of doing things and Sara's loud voice.They make classes such joy.Especially Physics :B Im going to fail math for the 64295829th or more time(:

Mid-years are in 23 days time.Yet again,am not close/near t any subject chapters.Its insane,its srsly insane,th amount of chapters they will test us for most of th subject.Cant they be angel and tell us what chapters t study specifically so that dumbfreaks like me wont go focus on th wrong chapters,not knowing which one is more important and after focusing so much on this chapter,th other chapter comes out.Ohno,thats why I always fail :B Ha ha,Biology test this Thursday.Ohgod,

2008-03-31T17:46:00.003+08:00

One 'major' event down,one more even major(x 92649283649264) up next Saturday.Im scared t th end of my nerves.Thank you Odac for all th cheering you gave us before & while running(: Diane,Olga,Vanessa,I love you guys<33 We did our best,didnt we?Morning run and air paddling tomorrow,lets hope it'll help us.We'll do our best till th end.

2008-03-30T20:30:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow,tomorrow,tomorrow
Im scared :/

2008-03-29T21:45:00.005+08:00

Training in th morning,bathe and left for lunch.SNGS Fiesta and Vanessa helped me spend my 10$.She went on th ride that turns madly,twice and Stella got on it once and she wanted t puke.Ha ha(: Sat,walked around,bought drinks and home.Slept and Im all awake.Im surprisingly not aching tday.3min19sec was th best set we did tday,with current and without current.Ehmagod.3 trainings,2 more weeks :/

I LOVE PEARLYN AMELIA PHUA PUAY LI HEN DUO HEN DUO.I LOVE YOU PEARLYN!<33 (Eh,this is serious shit)

2008-03-28T21:53:00.002+08:00

Sports Day next Monday.Competition's next next Saturday.Training tomorrow.27/28 days to Mid year and Im not even near any chapter for any subject.Ehmagod,Im so screwed.
101%(again) tomorrow,anyone?

2008-03-27T22:05:00.001+08:00

Human rugby,high jump ha ha what stupid games we played at the back of the class tday.Was free period and we(Jiayi,Esther,Vanessa,Leong and I) decided to entertain ourselves.Vanessa jumped over,her leg got hooked onto the tied belts and she broke her belt buckle.Ha ha,that poor child had to go all the way down to th general office to sew it back.Three periods of theory for FN was horrible,I was at outer space half the time.Dinnered at Macs with Anisa and Fatin and good god,its been forever since we had that.

Morning run and air paddling,lets go IJ<3

2008-03-26T21:10:00.002+08:00

4 more trainings,17 more days,2 weeks and 3 days more.Im paranoid and real scared.But,Im a happy girl tday(:
One more time?

2008-03-25T20:56:00.003+08:00

I h8 math,and you should too.
101% tomorrow,anyone?

2008-03-24T18:15:00.003+08:00

Library with Vanessa after school,she's the most kiasu person I've ever met.She took 3 books on eggs and borrowed them all,leaving me with only 1 book.Im home extra early tday.FourSix class board is sososo pretty and colourful.Its already amazing,considering that we did it just to get over with and it was within a short period of time.Its all up and done and pretty.Good job guys(: Ms Wong didnt come to school tday,it was a rare chance we had tday,srsly.I missed Dental appointment since I thought it was next Monday.Ha ha,I'm screwed.And,I srsly think I've got issues.I cant stop being paranoid and being worried.Look,its only two friggin weeks away from where we are now.I promise,I'll give it all out for the trainings and I ~~wont~~/try not to complain too much about it.I'd do anything,for the Championship.Even if that means,I'll have to row for 3km non stop(maybe not).

2008-03-20T18:56:00.003+08:00

HAPPY SEXY SEVENTEENTH BIRTHDAY LAAVANYA!<3

Report book tday,and I failed 3 out of 7.The worst things is,I failed my friggin mothertongue,so now tell me how screwed I am?I got a whole nag session by Mum the other time I failed my composition and I had to ask her to sign the paper,and come on,I got 22/50.It isnt that bad,isnt it?Anyway,after school spend with Laava,Sara,Kelly,Sheena & Vanessa.We decided to rent a horror movie and ohgod,I got scared,I covered my eyes 3/4 of the time.Left early for home and I hope you liked the surprise we gave you,Laava(: Happy Sexy Seventeenth again<33

We got extention for our research again I promise to you(yes you) that I will do my research and give it my all,since it'll be counted for damn mid years and talking about mid years I havent revise and its so near and poor Vanessa has exam on her birthday and its the worst subject she could ever ask for Social Studies HA-HA!Poor you Vanasah Yes no school tomorrow means I can spend the whole day online and doing research Watch me do
(Oh,did you read that in on breath?)

2008-03-19T23:44:00.003+08:00

Im tired.Im frustrated.Im annoyed.
First-ever training that was hardcore.6 more trainings and we're off for competition.Dragon boat feels like a chore to us.Probably the 'passion' for it vanished?Or are we just not motivated for it? 1km in 7-8 mins today.I've got no idea if its good or bad,but I'd personally take it as average.Im dead beat and tired,I've yet to complete my friggin F&N.

2008-03-18T22:28:00.002+08:00

Climbing up till the third storey with 3427840720 steps was torture.Pure horrific torture.What more,I had to walk up (16x3) flight of stairs,up and down.No kidding.Lunch with Esther,Laava,Sara & Vanasah at KFC at Bishan and we all ate The Real Deal Meal.Hahahah!While ordering,Vanessa HAD to emphazise on the words 'Real Deal'.God knows what she's thinking.Esplanade library,booked a screening room and watched Benchwarmers.Only Sara,Laava and I.Such a pity Vanessa couldnt come along ): Thursday,Thursday! Tuition at 7.30 and I arrived at 8.Dad fetched me home and Im dead tired.

2008-03-17T21:40:00.003+08:00

Funny how the littlest things about what we used to do and say could make me smile.Make me smile so much that later it broke into a frown.I break down,crying while thinking of you.You said little things to me,but you just got right through me and pinned me.After a year,you're still in my mind.You arent mine,but I cant seem to let go.You moved on,because you never knew how I felt about you.Things are going normally for you on one side and for me,Im suffering.Regretting I didnt do what I was supposed to do.I couldnt turn time back,but how I wish I could.And as Im writing this,Im tearing,I tear for me,for being so stupid and I tear for how I felt about you.You probably have got no idea Im writing this to you.Its as good as Im writing this for no one.I hope I am,but no,I am actually writing this for someone.

Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel

2008-03-17T17:46:00.004+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ntReE2n15bo
She's such a blessed child(:

Due to excessive amount of standing broad jump,ballet and 'high jump' during Pe,I suffer muscle aches in the tighs.And it seemed so hard for me to bend my knees to pick something up.Oh good.No more jumping too much,Nissa.First day of school dosent seem like it.It seemed like Im back to school after the weekends.I didnt miss the atmosphere of the school,considering I went back half of the week during the holidays.Ms Wong started English class with a joke(or not).
Ms Wong:Is the computer mouse a male or a female?
Class:Uh,male?
Ms Wong:Why?
Class:We dont know.
Ms Wong:Its a female because it has a pad underneath

The whole class,or half or quater of the class burst out laughing.It was by far the most funniest lame joke I've heard out of the rest.But PearlynLeong,had to be classic.'But my mouse dosent have the pad below,so mine's a male'Hahahaha!The rest of the days was as per normal,like how my Mondays are always.How oddly boring.Jiayi made an excuse to go home by taxi by saying 'My head pain'.That rich kid,takes cab home everyday after school,if her Mum dosent fetch her.And walking to the mrt station,she dosent seem to stop laughing,like as if she inhaled too much of laughing gas.Gee Jiayi (:

2008-03-16T22:54:00.002+08:00

Holidays dosent even feels like it.Im always out,at school,at Kallang.School's tomorrow.And Im not a wee bit prepared for it.English project due tomorrow,and Im rushing through.No,I did not purposely wait till the last minute but I forgot.I really did,seriously.F&N's research due date has been extended to Thursday.Which means I've still got time to meet up to their standard.Report book on Thursday which means,hello 'F's (: Im up for a long time,doing English and its going no where.

I like school,just dont start tomorrow.

2008-03-15T20:12:00.003+08:00

Im done with holiday homework.
No punishment from teachers,I hope.

2008-03-11T08:33:00.003+08:00

HAPPY SEVENTEENTH JIAYI!<3

2008-02-22T17:27:00.004+08:00

HAPPY SIXTEEN ALESIA GIAN BARBIE DOLL<3
HAPPY SIXTEEN JANE SAORI YAMADA!<3

Whole day,everyone was restless.Laava didnt come,so classes were all hell boring :( All we wanted to do was sleep.Everyone was either sleepy,moody or just plain tired.Lessons passed so fast today,two periods passed past but one period passed even faster.It was like come and go or touch and go or something.You know why,because we all stayed up till (chooseyourtime) to do research and came to school,just to find out that research was suppose to only be done halfway. And I though to myself,what the hell was I doing last night till late night cracking my pea brain and clicking here and there getting annoyed.All for no reason.

Home earlier than any other day.Mum was shocked to see me home so early.Earlier than she is.She even asked me 'What are you doing at home?' Social Studies common test tomorrow and I have yet to get reading and memorising facts on Gulf War.Seriously,I have no idea on why countries have to go to war.Cant you just friggin solve it other ways instead of war?Because of that,we have to cramp unnecessary information into ~~our~~ my pea brain.Test in early morning and ODAC lunch at 12.30.

2008-02-21T19:25:00.003+08:00

Accounts test is probably a sure fail test.Mother tongue was hell boring,had to copy down so much notes,for the first time in mother tongue class history of 2008.Math was hell boring,Ms Yap was sick and pmsing and it sucks when that happens.The class was hell quiet,I felt like as though I was at the graveyard or something.The canteen was not crowded since the Sec Three's are gone for Adventure Camp.Biology was hell boring and learning reproduction in humans is such pure torture.HA-HA!F&N was in the computer lab and doing own things for Vanessa & I.Our thumbdrive decided to be a bitch and refuse to open our file,so HA-HA!

Lunched at Macs with Best minus Pearlyn.Headed straight for tuition while the rest headed home.Am not an hour late or something,but only 1 min late.Tuition teacher was probably shocked to see me there so early.All went home straight to rush through F&N research which is due tomorrow and am only quarter there.Im so lazy,I should be sued.Friday tomorrow,PE tomorrow,2.4km tomorrow.Hi,Im going to drop dead after that.SS test on Saturday and it sucks,I hate SS.SS should be abolished.I'd better stop or I will have to stay up till 1am to finish up research.

2008-02-20T21:33:00.002+08:00

HHF is such a waste of time and is annoying.CME was boring,although eating behind the teacher's back with Esther was fun(: SS was boring and no one answered him when he asked questions.HA-HA! and the class was very quiet.English was boring and boring.Physics was even more boring,I didnt bother listening.Mother Tongue was playing scrabble.Not me though,I suck at it.I watched them play.Assembly and PC was kind off free period(:

Lunched in school,bused to Kallang.300 twisting,constant pausing while rowing(front catch),swinging of body,swing and kick,30 push ups=muscle ache.Am dead beat right now,I cant think properly.F&N research due on Friday,not even half done.F&N tomorrow,how very boring.Accounts test tomorrow,Im going to fail.Hi,Im so screwed for school.

Alesia:You coming on Saturday?
Me:Yeah,I think so.You?
Alesia:I dont know yet.
Me:Oh,you're going to go out with Ahmad right?
Alesia:No,where got!
Me:Dont lie lah
2 mins later,
Alesia:Eh,Im Ahmad.How can I go out with myself?
Meet the Barbie Doll of CHIJ ODAC DragonBoat Team(:

2008-02-19T19:46:00.004+08:00

Photo-taking right after assembly for ODAC.Fighting with Sherlyn whose taller while lining up,but we're both of the same height(but am a bit taller).Wasted Accounts period for it.Halfway doing Accounts test,fire drill alarm rang and we all had to run down to the basketball court and so,it's postponed to Thursday.Geog was hell boring.Veek slept so obviously.Both chins on her hands and eyes close.Mother Tongue was fine.English was correction and spelling.Math was free period but still,had to do assigned work.Finally,free math lesson after 24280473204 weeks.

Lunched in school with Vanessa,SaraAnn and Eunice.Headed down to Tangs Orchard with the mannequin and received 3742802 weird stares.Headed down to Heeren and walked around.Borders to read and when we're about to leave,the worker said we cant seat there.Just the right timing.Bullied the shit out of Eunice and she dosent seem to get irrtated although deep inside she might be angry.Hahahah(!) Sara and I laughed our heads off seeing Eunice reaction.Go out with both of them and you'll know what I mean.Abs baby abs(: Dragon boat tomorrow! & no more slack day,damn it.

Last chance for one last dance. says:
Eh,what if someone whips out a knife and stabs you?
true beauty lies in the heart.. says:
when?
true beauty lies in the heart.. says:
while moshing?
true beauty lies in the heart.. says:
DIE LAH
true beauty lies in the heart.. says:
what to do?
Last chance for one last dance. says:
Ya lah
Last chance for one last dance. says:
So I ask you to image you toothead
true beauty lies in the heart.. says:
ok wait
true beauty lies in the heart.. says:
i imagine

(Zomg,Thana,you suck man)Hahahaha!Then,I texted Vanessa asking her to look at the moon since its very pretty and bright tonight and she asked me 'Where's the moon' Woah,classic I tell you,classic.

2008-02-18T18:08:00.004+08:00

I swear to god,the new timetable sucks big time.After recesses are two periods,from Monday to Friday.God,dont they know we cant concentrate after recess,or maybe I dont/cant concentrate at all after recess(and the whole day).English was free period since she allowed us to do our own work,Math was boring like hell.No Accounts because of photo-taking and I look unglam with plasters on both side of my leg.F&N test and yes,am going to fail and its going to appear in the report book.Bio and Phy was,haha.Physics,I spend the time talking to Cassandra and Eunice telling them that Chicken Essence is actually chicken pee and they believed me.(I was bored,hell bored).

Lunched at Macs,I bought chicken,Vanessa bought Macs.Ate,left for library.Made two new friends who are Sec One.I swear,they're hell cute.One of them looked like Utt.Talked and laugh like as though we've known each other for some time.I tricked him saying that Vanessa & I were cousins and he believed.How naive(: Now kids,dont talk to strangers.Left and trained home lazily.Accounts test tomorrow and I smell and 'F' but I must try my best not to get an 'F' because it'll look horrible on my report card(although I have quite a number of them already).

I've got something to look forward too at the end of the week.Saturday will be dragon boating for fun-day with seniors and coach(: I cant wait,it's been a long long time since all of us was in that boat and shouting and talking nonsense,not worrying about anything or anyone hearing us because when we're in the middle of the sea,no one could hear us.Hello Seniors and Coaches.I cant wait to see you all and we can bring back all the stupid yet fun memories.

2008-02-17T00:15:00.008+08:00

Fashion Show was a huge success.Despite all the meetings,all the meet ups after school we have to do,all the irritating phone calls we have to make asking for Sponsorship,all the scoldings we get and all the jazz,I honestly enjoyed myself yesterday.Dancing,singing from the side.Screaming and running around.In and out the hall.I even got the chance to pass the flowers to the Mentors.I learned a whole lot about the working world from this project and let me tell you,it aint easy.No wonder some adults tells me that I have to treasure my secondary school days.I'm already missing it,already missing the rehersals we have,the meetings on Saturdays we have and all the scoldings we got.I miss it,I really do.And thank you to those who came,despite the expensive tickets.

http://veraceline.nomadlife.org/
Thank you Vera Celine & Samantha & Mentors for believing in us.Believing that we will make this show a success.I hope,we've all done you proud.We wouldnt have get through all this without your guidance and motivating words.You took time off to come and help us despite your busy working schedule.This Fashion Show as a succes with the effort of the mentors and 4/5 4/6 & 4/10 girls.Thank you for believing that even Normal Acad girls can make it big,one day.

After Fashion show was Island Cremery with Pearlyn,Veek,Grace,Stella & Esther.Orchard with Veek and Pearlyn after while the rest went home.Far East for food,Marriot just to go to the toilet.Listening to Veek's & Pearlyn's crazy press the door bell and run story.Walked all the way to Dhoby Ghaut.Trained down to Marina Bay and back,just to get seats since both Pearlyn and I are dying and legs are already giving way.Pearlyn falling asleep and waking up and asking 'Did I just fall asleep'(x3) and me,nodding(x3).Hahahahaha! Ohgod,one hell of a day,I'll never forget.

2008-02-15T19:08:00.002+08:00

No electricity from 8am-9am.No proper food.Happy Total Defence Day.Altogether,I had 5 free periods.And you dont know how good it feels.MsWong went for Self-Awareness and Mother Tongue teacher went too.So (haha) goodbye.Spend all 5 periods doing,some work,some talking.Mother Tongue was sure spent talking.Physics was hell boring and so was SS.Two boring subjects just HAD to end off the Friday(s).Oh& new timetable on Monday,no more slack day on Wednesday.Damn it.Ate lunch,had rehearsel and home.Fashion show's just tomorrow.Twin's(L) going to come!.Models did a great job and so did dancers and so did everyone(though most of us became audience).I now cant wait for it,I've got to admit,I'll miss it once its over and I know I complain alot about it,but I cant wait.Okay,contradicting.

Im.In.Need.Of.Proper.Sleep.

2008-02-14T19:15:00.004+08:00

Happy Valentines,Bitches(: Thanks to all those who gave me anything,I'll get yours soon,I promise! PE was funny,I cant sprint for god's sake.Yes,I fell on my knees today and so I have two bruises on both side of the knees.Here's what happened(I carried Sheena,the back to back carry thing,instruted by MsTeo,I carried her too high,she got scared,she struggle,she pushed me down and down I go).Its okay Sheena,I forgive you,anyway,plasters are kool!Geography was stone time,burn-braincells-time.Bio was freaky,Ms Ng suddenly burst like a balloon.English was spelling and doing spelling correction.F&N was spend doing long-overdue Geog homework and not doing anything related to F&N.

Lunch at LJS with Stella & Vanessa.Stella & I disturb the hell out of Vanessa and sure did irritate the hell out of her,but Vanessa keeps a cool face,somewhat irritated though.Ate,met Amanda and Jessica and left for Novena.Walked around and around and around and Vanessa bought things and we all went home.Friday tomorrow,Rehearsel till six and home and wake up and taadaa,its Fashion Show day,I cant deny,the tags are hell nice.Gee,strut your style,models and dance your way,dancers(:

2008-02-13T21:27:00.003+08:00

Wednesday's my favourite day because less lesson,more free period.HHF was uh(boring).CME was free period and it always has been.Mother Tongue was uh(okay).Recess is always the best seeing everyone<3 English was spelling and I felt as though Im back in Primary school only with chim-er words.POA was uh(boring).Assembly was uh(assembly-ish).Lunch in school and headed to Kallang for Dragon boating.Feels good to row after 3427402 days of not rowing.Though I suck at setting the pace and being co-ordinated.Having Pearlyn screaming 'Too fast Nissa'.I guess,I really did pissed her off.Hahaha!Back to school and helped clear the hall after the Fashion Show Rehearsels.Very tired,very sleepy.Im so tired,Im lazy to type more.

Happy One Day Valentine's Day,Bitches(:

2008-02-12T20:12:00.000+08:00

I cant wait for dragon boating.I actually miss it.It'll be a few hours from now.I hope the sun wont shine too bright,so I'll be able to row properly.I hope the sea water wont enter my eyes so I can row properly.I hope I dont fall tomorrow while running cause Im so unfir.I know soon I can wait for the trainings,but for now,I cant wait.My sandals are too small for me but I've got no choice.Oh& I conclude,Vanessa's very slow when it comes to joke.She'll give you a blank face and after explaining it,her expression stays the same.Im so lazy to blog,thus Im blogging like this.

AisyahPuteri&RachelFang are officially my bestbitch.
WeTheBitches(:

2008-02-11T20:23:00.000+08:00

For a start to the week,Im pretty happy that I didnt feel a teeny weeny bit sleepy in ANY classes.Yes,awake through Mother Tongue,F&N,Math,Geog and English.Got scolded on a bright early morning of Monday during Mother Tongue.It was the least expected teacher who shouted at us.Caught us offguard much? F&N was spend annoying the shitxz out of Celine since she sat beside me(: Math was hell boring,boring ol' math and all hail Laava for entertaining me and MsYap called me,yet again.Geog was total free period and my paranoia during the earlier subject cause I didnt do work was gone to waste.English was still boring.

Lunched in school and Fashion Show Rehearsel after till around 6 and home.And let me tell you Vanessa and Stella cant dance compared to the other dancers.They just spoil the whole dancing atmosphere(: Vanessa has a boyfriend named isuddenlyforgot and Stella has a boyfriend names Char-ming which eventually turned out to be me.Vanessa decided to walk around the corridor and started shouting herboyfriend's name like a mad woman.Had a great laugh and literally rolling on the floor laughing.God,small things makes school a whole lot better.

Your voice,that song.

2008-02-10T13:34:00.000+08:00

Caught up in the way life seems to make you
Feel as if you say i wont make it through
Your hanging by a thread and no one seems to care
But you'll find that in your heart i will be there
Its Monday tomorrow(: Im mostly done with all my homework cause I,uhm,wrote nonsense and utter rubbish on my papers.Im not done with F&N and I cant be bothered.You know what?Screw it,seriously.Screw it.I just have to find was on how to do my Geog or come up with shit ass excuses on why I didnt do my Geog.I've yet to get the book and oh,Im screwed.I've never felt so eggxited to go to school before.Probably cause the amount of braincells in my brains are deplicting and Im bored to the end of my nerves.Can you believe it?I stayed at home for the whole CheenaNewYear holidays.Hi,Im going to kill more braincells,yet again.

2008-02-09T17:40:00.001+08:00

And i hope this makes you happy now
That the flame we had is burning out
And i hope you like your pictures facing down
As even broken hearts may have their doubts
Its Saturday and I'm already missing school.I've been staying at home far too much and its killing me.I'm only done with F&N for my homework case and the rest are yet to be done.I should just chiong for English during Assembly and Geog,screw Geog.I've yet to buy the book and I heard,there are tons of question.Im just far too lazy to go get the book at Popular.I doubt Popular even sells it,if they dont.Haha,Im so screwed.Staying back for Fashion show rehearsels pwns staying back cause I didnt do homework.Fashion show's next Saturday and Im not a little bit eggxited.Funny how everyone was so enthu about it a few months ago and all the enthusiasm drained out when we've got loads of work to do.Hi,I hate staying at home.

2008-02-08T18:27:00.000+08:00

I've come to realise that I'm so very good at wasting my time and not using my time to do something productive.I spend the whole day at home,sleeping,eating,watching tv,using computer,playing the psp & reading my book.Surprisingly,it never occured to me that I have to get started with my homework.Books in my bag are probably calling out my name asking me to do them before I get scolded.Pens & Pencil & Eraser & Ruler in my pencil case figeting wanting to get out.Good lord,I need to go for time-management class.

COME JOIN ME IN KILLING BRAINCELLS
Do you feel the vibration due to the grenade that just exploded? Do you hear the cries of dying braincells?Do you hear the war calling?(:

2008-02-07T20:22:00.001+08:00

Probably around 623784629 of my brain cells died today due to the countless time I stoned at home.Im so sorry (Twin!) that we end up not meeting each other and maybe,you too killed the same amount of brain cells.Suddenly,a lazyness disease attacked me while I was on the computer and I got up and walked to the room and feel asleep.Weird I say,I felt like a robot.Woke up,bathe and here I am,yet again.Not a good thing,but it cant be helped.

I forgot to say,yesterday,during Mass.Halfway through it,the priest asked us to do the sign of the cross on the forehead of our friends and say 'Jesus Loves You.And I love you too' Pearlyn Lau did the sign of the cross on her own forehead and said 'Jesus Loves Me.And I love Me' God,it was hilarious,but it might not be now.Laava on the other hand did the littlest thing that could make all of us laugh.Geee,these littlest things can make my day,but there are just bound to be other things that will spoil it.Especially if unexpected things just pop up infront of your face.

HAPPY CHEENA NEW YEAR!
Its the Rat year Stella!(:

2008-02-06T20:50:00.000+08:00

Nothing beats a day(which I know will eventually end up being hell-day) hanging out with cousins.Catch up with (Twin!♥) was the higlight of the day.Since both of us refuse to go home early,we walked around Esplanade and walked along the side road,talking and spilling secrets.No more secrets yeah?(: Bought cotton candy and walked a whole circle and realise we ended up at the same place from where we started.I love you (Twin!♥) I thank god for you(: I wouldnt know what I'll end up to be without a Twin thats so close to my heart always.She knows me more than anyone else would.She understands me and she thinks like me.She's such an angel in disguise.Starbucks tomorrow? Date me date me(!) :D

We all sat in circles,put our hands together and spill everything inside of our hearts.Playing still vividly in my mind,I remember all the things we did.From all the scoldings we got for making noise in the toilet to getting through the year together.I thank god for you 4 too(: What would I ever do in 3/6 in 2007?Things will tend to pull us apart,but we'll push it away with all our might right? I sense the closeness yet again,closeness with I've yearn for.It always put a smile on my face when I feel the closeness flowing through.Valentine's Day=Airport(!)♥

I was foolish enough to take your words to heart,
Would you be another to make me regret?
Please,say No.

2008-02-05T19:00:00.000+08:00

Im starting to doubt everything that you do and say.I know so much.You're such a liar.A big ass liar.I look at you in a different way now.I dont see you like how I used too.I was foolish and stupid to even trust you..I cant believe I even know you.I bet I'll be better off if I didnt know you.God,I dont know what to say anymore.

Math bored the shitxz out of me & Ms Yap never fails to call my name.Like what Laava would say 'Its as if she cant sleep at night if she dosent call my name'.So true Laava,so true.Wrote letter to Laava although she was only a seat away from me.Accounts my highness level dropped drastically and for once,Mrs Siau got pissed at Rohaidah.Gee,scary.MotherTongue was (hah).SS was free period(!).Physics was funny,letter to Laava & Father Yap is so cute.I got 1/25 for the test,beat that.Biology was very biology.Lunch at Bishan,walked around,Amk hub,home.Lessons are over for the week,am statisfied with the amount of homework we got (:

2008-02-04T09:13:00.000+08:00

Blinded
By the light
Hold you through forever
Won’t let you go

[HELLO NISSA :D YOU'RE SUPER MEAN I TELL YOU (: WRITE ABOUT HOW NICE AND SUPERLY NICE YOU ARE. what ~~utterly rubbish~~ i tell you (: ohwells, its fun, during f&n lessons.i swear, free lessons, WOOHOO. ohyeah (: .self awareness was th shitxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxz :D I LOVE YOU (: HEROINE <3 .VOTE NISSA FOR PRESIDENT (: <3.] -Debra

I'll be your bestest bestfriend if anyone of you get me that sexy dropdeadgorgeous W960i.Oh& I made a bet with brother a few days back.7-8 points for N's and its Hello Sony Ericsson CyberShot camera.More priority on me=mine(: Hello Books,be my bestfriend.I like making bets,though half the time I always lose.But whatever,Im so very determine that I'll win this bet.He's gonna lose 500 buckeroos on me.Hah,loser.

School was fine,F&N was spend during other things instead of F&N.I did my MotherTongue workbook,joy oh joy(: Math was hell boring,I got caught for laughing & again,I always get called and always get caught >( Geog was free period,supposedly to be used for studying for test in the first period.Test in the second and am going to flunk it.English was hell boring,hell oh hell boring. Lunch at Bishan with PearlynLau and Vanessa.Library and I got four books,got to buck up my English.Trained home,dropped card at Bishan,realise only at Yck,called Pearlyn,she trained back with me to Bishan.Got my card and thank you to whoever found it.Thanks a million. & Thank you Pearlyn for following me to and fro.Thanks a zillion!<33

Take care on your trip to Japan Jane(: Come home soon and you can hughughug me!(:

2008-02-03T23:05:00.000+08:00

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading
From all the things that we are
And are not saying
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn

SaturdayNight:
(Chalet)(Twin)(Pretty flowers)(Bbq food)(Sleepover)(Little cousins)(Beach)(Eyecandy)

Sunday:
(Cityhall)(Peninsular)(Pretty flowers)(Esplanade)(A Vacant Affair)(Moshing was craaazzzy)

Thats how I spend my weekend.Now Monday,dont be a bitch.

2008-02-02T14:26:00.000+08:00

We had it all in front of us
You were the one, I was in love
But you always hurt the one you lost
I couldn't get enough.

Camp was awesome.It was only a few hours ago when we were dismissed,but zomg,I miss it already.Sharing session was the best.I broke down even before the session of sharing started.Broke into groups of 5-9 people and shared.Everyone cried,I cried for everyone and problems they're facing.

BBQ was great.Acting like bimbos,laughing,screaming,running around,piggyback race,pushing,singing,camwhoring,talking about ridiculous stuff,hiding Vanessa's stuff,throwing her bra and panties and singing while mopping the floor filled both days.I can never thank you enough Vanessa,Laava,Sara,Gaya,Kelly,Sheena,Pearlyn,Jiayi,Felicia,Debra & Esther for all the things that we did.It was memorable.I'll really remember the late night talk we had before bathing.One of those camp that I will remember,every single moment,vividly.God,it was awesome.Mass was great,Vanessa did a good job.Cluedo's fun,our group solved it first.Coming up with all sorts of motive like 'He killed her because she had an affair' Hahaha,Clare.Lunch at KFC with all of the above minus Debra,Felicia & Vanessa.Dad came and fetch me home.Dead tired,but will have to get ready to go Chalet.Pictures with Debra & Sara.Will upload,soon(:

Thank you 4/6.I love you 4/6!

2008-01-31T20:08:00.000+08:00

The days are here again
When all the lights go down,
What do they show me?
The rules are all the same
It's just a different game
To tell you how I feel

-I was one hour late for tuition.
-MsYap didnt come in for Math.
-I did my homework.
-I hate carrying heavy things in a crowded bus.
-Self-Awareness camp tomorrow,finally.
-I cant wait,I cant wait,I cant wait,I cant wait & I cant wait.
-My hearts jumping up&down up&down(:

See you on Saturday,

2008-01-29T20:34:00.000+08:00

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

What makes me look forward to school would definately be friends.Because friends are what keeps me going in school.God,tday was filled with laughter and singing.Laava's stupid jokes,everything she does makes me laugh.Even the way she talks and thus,I always get caught laughing and had to answers question.It was so quiet when she's away for two days last week.God,it was like torture.I cant wait for Self-Awareness,talked about it during Bio class today and god,Im so eggcited for it.Kallang after school with Pearlyn and Vanessa.Sat at the bus stop to wait for the rain to stop,while talking random car-passing by pictures.Then she took pictures of the dragon boats and people rowing it,while I took random pretty flowers picture and Vanessa's candid picture.But it was all nice.Dhoby Ghaut foodcourt after that and home.Vanessa's 'I'll leave in 10 mins ended up to be 20-25 mins'.Home and didnt get scolding(: English tomorrow,Odac tomorrow,Hhf tomorrow.Damn it,more aerobics and running.I shant run,but I want too.How contradicting.

2008-01-28T18:38:00.000+08:00

When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

'Eh,what happened to your leg?'.Tday,I think I've replied to that question 1741074 times.Hello People,I burned my leg and its wounded and red now.Yay,dont ask me anymore.No assembly,so we stayed in class and I told Debra&Sara&Vanessa what happened to my leg and they looked like little children listening to Story-Telling.Hahahaha!(: Mother Tongue teacher wasnt pmsing,so yay!F&N was in the needlework room.Communicating with BimboFelicia through the mirror and open book quiz.Math was boring ol' math.Recess was spend in class.Geog was free period,changed my bandage and it was like as if it was a free Nissa-taking-off-her-bandage-show.Vick constantly saying 'I Love You Nissa' whenever I go 'Aaaah'.Hahaha, I love you too Vick(: Laava insisted that the oil Grandma gave me looked like used after-you-cook-anchovies oil.Stupid Woman.English,ended early.

Lunched at Macs with Best(complete baby,complete).Talked and ate.They told us what happened during Self-Awareness.Which made me cant wait even more.Im going,I need to go,I want to go,despite my stupididiotic wound.4 more days,4 more days.4 more days to dancing and singing and laughing and praying and sharing with 4/6'08(: I cant wait,ohgod.Stella left,the rest stayed and talked even more.Left and Vanessa&I went to get stickers.Like small little children while Celine&Pearlyn went for tuition.Walked around,sat and went home.

Thank you to everyone who helped me today.A great big hug and flying kisses(: Ohgod,Dragon boat training is going to start soon.My wound is still red and painful.I want to row,I want to row.I want to compete,I want to compete.I want medal,I want medal.Wound oh wound,please heal.I want to row,I want to run.

2008-01-27T12:20:00.000+08:00

Dear Best,

So here we stand
Anchored in hope
Letting the rain wash away every fear
Stars in the sky
Twinkle and shine
I pray they won't disappear

Cause I don't know
Where your journey goes
Or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I will be watching over every beat of your heart

I wish that time
Could be replayed
I'd keep you here with me everyday
They say that love is letting go
I hope that you find your way

I know things havent been good for us.But I hope & pray that we will find our path back to each other.We've been through one whole year together and I'm sure we will be able to make it through again together.Things have been difficult,with being in different classes and not seeing each other all the time.Our free days clashes with each other,but then again,we can always cancel what we have.For just that one day,can turn everything bad that's happening between us to a better one,just like 2007.I'm still here for you guys,always and forever.But then again,its up to you all whether you want to turn and talk to me or shut me off away from your world.I love you Celine,Pearlyn,Stella & Vanessa(♥♥♥♥).

I now can only turn to God for help.For he's the one that will be able to help us.No one else can.But God,understanding and us,ourselves.Things really didnt go the way we expected.People say it'll happen,but we stood firm with our words and refuse to believe them.But ohgoodlord,look at whatever happen.Dear God,I pray to you that you'll help us in this.Shut off all the misunderstandings that may happen between us.For they are the ones I treasure,alot.I'll do anything.I'll be a good girl and be on Santa's 'Good' list of people.Please help us.

'All this misunderstanding
All this anarchy
Six degrees of separation
Sometimes it's so hard to see
That we are not alone in this
I need to believe'

& Happy Confirmation Debra!(:

2008-01-26T20:48:00.000+08:00

Now i'm hoping just a little bit stronger
Hold me up just a little bit longer
I'll be fine, i swear
I'm just gone beyond repair

This is getting far too worst.Im practically limping everywhere I go.I cant stretch my leg,even if I do,I'll have to bare with the pain.I could feel the stretch in the burned patch.I limp everywhere I go,toilet,room,kitchen.My knees are far too tired.I use my chair to move about.I have trouble sleeping too.This sucksucksuck.I will never jump off a bike ever again.Bathing's like a horrible thing to do.It touches water and it feels like 30 ant bite.Farfarfarfarfar tooooooo worst >(

Yes twin,I miss you too ♥

(Hello 4/6'08 Self-Awareness Committee,I need the I/C's of each group to write down what they need for the camp. I need from:
~~Games Comm~~
Programme Comm
Mass Comm
Food Comm)

This is the way it went.This is the way the fate chooses.I cant do anything,but to just look at you from a distant.That itself could make me smile,even if the smile is fake.I know I'll never get close,I know I never can.

2008-01-25T18:50:00.000+08:00

We won't say our goodbyes
You know it's better that way
We won't break
We won't die
It's just a moment of change

Hi,I burned my leg today Yes,I really did & earned myself a patched of burned of skin+ can be seen flesh.I teared,yes,it's painful.You dont believe me?Go try it yourself.For 3 hours,I endured with the pain.It had to be a very hot weather day.So,heat was all around me,burned skin,exhaus pipe & the scorching hot sun.I got so agitated with everything around me.Grandma's house after Dentist and she helped me apply some oil unto it.God,it so disgusting.

School was alright.Its Friday,I was just counting down to the end of school.POA was free period,Mrs Siau didnt come up.English was dead boring,I nearly slept with doing compre.Mother tongue was extra funny.Recess,was spent in class,with food.Talking to SaraSantaClaws and Debolah.Physics was fun,out of 7 question,I only did 5,since I didnt study a single chapter for it.SS was,need I say more?.School's such a joy with 4/6'08(: Self-awareness next week,cant wait!

I never knew how your words could convince me.I never knew.You had your way,you had your style.You walked past me and took over me.I surrender to you.

2008-01-24T18:46:00.000+08:00

Wednesday:
Highlight of the day would be playing games in a circle,outside the library after Health screening and at the back of the classroom.I feel like a primary school kid though.Hah,but it was hilarious.Odac fitness test was a killer.I think we(Pearlyn,Stella,Vanessa&I) wasted all of our energy on singing,running around,dancing and doing silly things.Untill we finally settle down,then we all realise we've wasted our energy.But its okay,at least it was the noisiest and funniest training so far,ever since school started(: 8th National DragonBoat Competition will be on the 12th of April.Just so you know,thats 3 months away.Soon,it'll be 2 months away.God,I already feel so scared.Are we going to win or lose?Thats all Im thinking about.Its so scary,veryvery scary.But thank god its in April,so we could get done and over with.June would be a tad too far and I'll be busy with all the extra classes and coursework >( Training starts in February,ohgod,I need to build up my arm muscle. Oh& I signed up to run 1500 for SportsDay.I joined it for fun,along with PearlynLau/Leong,Jane,Melissa,Vanessa,Stella.I think thats all.We're all going to finish the race together alright?(:

Thursday:
Skipped tuition(: Went to look at the people receiving their O's result.Majority of them cried,and I couldnt tell if it was happy-cry or sad-cry.Probably happy-cry for the smart asses.Saw Lijin and hugged her,she was crying.I was imagining myself receiving it,I'll probably pee in my pants or just dropdead on the floor,flat.Although its 2 years from now.I've got my N's damn it.Lunched at Bishan with Vanessa.Then went popular to get stickers and bought keychain from turnturn machine.Walked to the library to start pasting,then walked back to popular to go get another sticker,then walked back to the library to paste it again and then,finally,we decided to go home.I again feel like a kid,but it was fun.

I wouldnt trust you.If I ever did,I'll smack myself real hard across the face.I still cant get over the fact I trusted you,once.I'll move slowly,slowly away from you. & by the time,you know it,I'll probably wont say a single word to you.Yes,thats how bad it is.

2008-01-22T21:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN MENAGA!
I love you,englishdeskpartner ♥

Firstly,Hello PearlynPhua,please oh please dont be sad.You do know we're still here right?Always and forever.We've promised,we'll stick to it.It wont be an empty promise alright?You know we all love you.I know we've drifted like zomglyinsanely much ever since the holidays had started & now,when we see each other in school like 5 days per week,we dont really talk that much.I do feel the distance,but you know,I still do believe in Best.We made it through together,I believe we could do it again.Dont be sad,we're still here,we're still Best.& you can hug me as tightly as you want,if it makes you smile & we love you,Peep!♥ ,always and forever.

Secondly,Laaava didnt come again today so I didnt sing in class.It'll be a tad weird singing alone in class.Math's so damn boring,boringboring ol' math.POA was hahahaly very quiet,as per normal.My mt teacher's pmsing,hardcorely.Recess was spend running around the whole entire level,running away from Vanessa with SaraAnn,going into all the different located toilets(: Hello Santa Claws! SS test was a horror,I couldnt finish it,damn it.Physics,I guess,MrYap was pmsing too,but the class never fails to burst out laughing.Biology was in the IT resource room and we did reproductive system of humans,which got all of us laughing.

Lunched at Bishan with Best minus Celine&Vanessa plus Debra at Macs.Ate and left for library.Stella&Pearlyn cancelled their tuition to study at Bishan(: Studied,Debra left & Pearlyn left.Stella and I did our work and I finished two questions,all by myself(: Am so very proud && I drew Stella's curve graph.So very beautiful(: Hahaha,left,talked at the bus stop and zomg,it was funny and good(: We missed 3-4 88 buses.Trained home and yeah,am home.Oh,HHF tomorrow,ODAC fitness test tomorrow and damn it,I heard it was gonna be hard.Hello BestestBeembo!♥ Run with me,pass with me or either fail with me.

Funny how I believe you,funny how I trusted you,funny how I talk to you,funny how I can even look at you in the eye,funny how funny how funny how.You proved me wrong,all damn wrong.Thanks for that,better with an early warning,than a late one.

2008-01-21T19:27:00.000+08:00

Maybe, it's your time to lift up and fly
You won’t know if you never try
I will be there with you all of the way
You’ll be fine

I tend to cant not sleep on a Sunday night and it results to me waking up extra early every Monday and reaching school all fresh.Weird indeed,veryvery weird.I might need to go to the doctor to get my body clock checked,I swear.Anyway,My mothertongue teacher's pmsing,she's like a bomb,tickticktick and she explodes.She even scolded me,saying that I dropped in mothertongue.F&N was un-boring.We sat in the needlework room and I sat with Vanessa,so both of us decided to stone together.Annabelle caught us & she started laughing.She gets amused with the slightest things,seriously.Maths was very boring,Ms Yap just simply refuses to let me go to the toilet,my bladder was about to explode.Lesson learn,never to drink too much water in the morning.Geog was zomglyinsanely boring.Although the first part,Debra & I got high due to the amount of sugar intake we had during recess,then we slowly died down,just like battery.English was as per normal,need I say more?

Lunched in school with Best.Finally goddamnit,finally(: Talked and talked and Celine,Stella & Pearlyn left for their meeting with FaustaTan and Vanessa and I waited at the canteen and we stoned and watch people walk by.Eunice came by later and we sat for half an hour.Then we went to play soccer.We looked pathetic I must say,three IJ girls running around the field kicking the ball under the hot scorching sun,5-10mins later,we all gave up and went back to the canteen,all perspiring like maaaad.God knows how they stand 90mins game running around.Finally,they came down after an hour or so and bus-ed to Tp.Trained to Bishan to especially get my brother's Crystal Baby.He made a deal,one packet of Crystal Baby=Polaroid Film.Such a great deal I cant turn down (: Stupid Loserr.SS CA tomorrow & Physics test.Looks like Ive got to stay up,again :D

2008-01-20T14:30:00.000+08:00

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Monday tomorrow & new time table.Wednesday's not more a slack day.Oh damn it ): Lessons that I probably detest are all on tomorrow.Mostly two periods,teachers are just out there to just suck our blood out of our body and leave us all dried on the floor.I realise the weekend have passed only yesterday,at 11pm and that too I had to ask Twin.She's not going to come for tuition,I have to go alone and walk back to the mrt station alone still.I've got tuition homework and SS notes & Physics test to study for.Its all just already driving me insane an oh,its only January.June would be jammed pack with extra lessons and more extra lessons.Ohmygoodlord. & I dont even know if I would be able to participate in the DragonBoat Competition this year.

Forget it,Im not going to fucking pass my F&N coursework anyway.The expectations are just too fucking high that Im no match for it.I should have fucking took Art.Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.

2008-01-19T22:09:00.000+08:00

I think it turned ten o'clock but I don't really know
And I can't remember caring for an hour or so
Started crying and I couldn't stop myself
I started running but there's no where to run to

Orientation wasnt as good as last year.Last year was hell fun.Running around screaming, breaking the cut out letters of ODAC made from cardboard,walking around cope-ing stickers and things that was meant for SecOnes and making new friends.Only this year,it was dang boring,wasnt as fun.The SecFours came back and now I realise how much I miss them,how much I miss dragon boating trainings,how much I miss after trainings and how much I miss having the SecFours during training to make everything all noisier & get scoldings together.Lunched at Macs with Rachel,Lijin,Stella & Pearlyn.Talked & laugh & talk & laugh and we lost track of time.Rushed back to school for meeting,which I think is such a waste of time.Macs for icecream and home.Walked home with all the different stickers pasted onto my shirt and the word ODAC on my left arm that looks like a tattoo since its smudged.

For you are the ones I believe in,for I know that nothing will come in between us.Its been days since we got to hang out together.Oh,whatever happened to what we said? Its still alive and burning right? We'll keep the flame going on & say,Let The Flames Begin.

2008-01-18T18:53:00.001+08:00

Cause this is real, and this is good
It warms the inside just like it should
But most of all most of all,
It's built to last
It's built to last

Did homework till 11-12+ last night.Woke up early since brother banged on the door like as if someone was going to take his life away.Reached school extra early.Had English, MotherTongue, Bio & Math.Stayed in class for recess.Had a hard time sneaking food up to class.Hahaha! It was a hilarious process though.Two periods of Accounts & SocialStudies.Surprisingly,Ss wasnt as boring-till-it-could-put-me-to-sleep-lesson,it was more of a oh-its-finally-a-funny-lesson.

Lunched at Bishan with Best minus Pearlyn(we're never complete).Home after.Im home early on a Friday and always home late on the other days.How very weird.Physics test on Tuesday & SS CA on Tuesday.Ohmygoodlord,save me.CCA orientation tomorrow and general meeting. Please tomorrow,please be more fun and filled with fun,joy & laughter.Please oh please.

2008-01-17T18:54:00.000+08:00

You, got me thinking it'll be alright
You, you told me to come and take a look inside
You, believe me and every single lie
But I, I failed you this time

First period of the day and I got thrown out.Basically more than half of the class go thrown out for MotherTongue class and slowly,one by one went back till I was left with Fatin outside.Hilarious(: Oh& MsJoTeo just HAD to walk pass and we all freaked out for a second.Physics was still my very own free period.Math was just,normal.Boring ol' math.We had out FeastFamily gathering and JUNE TOH just HAD to come in and disturb us,self inviting herself.Go away June,you're not invited.HA-HA! POA was singing 'SaraAnn is coming to town' with Laava while doing assignments and F&N was okay,for once,since its in the computer lab.

Lunched with Best minus Pearlyn plus Nadia & Norine at Pizza Hut.Talk,ate and I left very late for tuition and arrived half an hour late and I have to make up the time I've lost by going half an hour ealier for tuition next week.Twin didnt come since she had tournament.Ohgoodlord.He should have just made me stay this week.I've got math,mothertongue,bio,english,ss & f&n homework.All due tomorrow.Someone,please remind me not to leave all my work to the very last minute. & my brother's being a bitch by letting me us the computer for less than an hour.Stupid bitch >(

2008-01-16T18:41:00.000+08:00

Start a new fashion wear your heart on your sleeve
Sometimes you reach what's real just by making believe
Unafraid, unashamed
There is joy to be claimed in this world
You even might wind up being glad to be you

HHF,aerobics was hilarious,Vanessa looked like Ronald MacDonald.Cme was boring,I never liked cme,worst still,Celine's not in my class.PE passed very quickly & we ran only two rounds.Recess,Debra & Laava & SaraAnn & Vanessa & I sat in class and had a feast and decided to call us the 'Feast Family' More feast soon!(: Geog was as usual,boring but Debra made it fun and stupid Veek kept on sleeping.English was as boring still.Assembly was same-old-thing and they briefed us on self-awareness and I cant wait to go for it.Cleaning time,Laava!(:

Had to swallow all the food in 10 minutes and it was torture.Ran 2.4km and climbed up 60 storey.A 30 storey block times 2.Pure effin torture.Its going to be our normal training and oh my good lord,I need to buck up my stamina.F&N tomorrow,but its in the computer lab and Im just happy enough(: CCA orientation this Saturday and meeting after.Oh my good lord ): Tuition tomorow,OhgodOhgod.

What we didnt want to happen,happened.What we want to happen,didnt happened.Its the 2nd/3rd week of school and we havent even had a proper lunch together.You might think that I dont miss you all,I really do.Deepdeep down.I miss all of your nonsense in class,I'll do anything to get back 2007,I swear.Even though this is happening,you guys know that deepdeepdeepdeep down in my heart,I still love all of you. & I promise,I'll turn to you guys.Please,pick a date when all of us are free and will be able to make it for lunches.I.MISS.YOU.ALL.SO.BLOODY.MUCH.
I LOVE YOU,CELINE,PEARLYN,STELLA & VANESSA.

2008-01-15T18:22:00.000+08:00

I'm not going
Cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
Cause it might save you

Started drawing stupid things on the board with Fatin for MotherTongue after giving up on Composition.Physics,no test! and sang song once MrYap stepped out of the class.Vanessa and I was planning to flunk the test and thank god,there wasnt any.MissYap came in and had math,boring ever boring math.Recess,stayed in class since I didnt do homework and to escape from staying back.I must start doing my homework already.Biology was entertaining,asking question on how plants reproduce and more.English was alright,I tried my very best to try to stay awake in class.POA was un-boring.Mrs Siau is the bestest accounts teacher I ever got.Sara-Ann's my Santa Claus,she has every stationery I need.Most of it actually.

You better watch out
You better not cry
Better not pout
I'm telling you why
Sara Ann is coming to town

She's making a list
And checking it twice
Gonna find out
Who's naughty and nice
Sara Ann is coming to town

Lunched in school with SaraAnn,Eunice,Grace,Celine,Vanessa & Shanna.Headed down to Vivocity's Tangs just to get the mannequin for FashionShow and I,got the heaviest part among all of them,although it only was the stand for the mannequin,I swear to god,mine's the heaviest.& the weather decided to be unkind to me and rained so bloody heavily and I had to walk home with the heavy stand and umbrella and for a minute,I thought Im going to sprain my hand or something.Hhf tomorrow,Pe tomorrow,Odac tomorrow.(Run baby run)

2008-01-14T18:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEBRA! ♥
I love you A cup Bra!

This is the dance for all the lovers
Takin' a chance for one another
Finally it's our time now
These are the times that we'll remember
Breaking the city sight together
Finally it's our time now

Reached school earlier than I usually do probably because the night before I cant sleep,so I tossed and turn and tossed and turn and fell asleep and woke up every 1 hour.I told you my body clock's so screwed.F&N wasnt really a killer,better than I expected.SS was boring,Geog was fun,I made up names for my people like Heroinenarians.HA-HA!Mother tongue was like a lecture,somehow.Stayed in class for recess,English was funny and Laava made me laugh till I cant read when Ms Wong called me.Math made Laava and me go mad since we cant find the answer and was trying our best to figure out the sum.Both of us felt like our brains only had numbers and the plus minus divide times sign and nothing else inside.

Lunched at Bishan with Best minus Stella.Its the 2nd week of school and we've not been going for lunch together,as in all five of us,how very sad.Library after,did work and Vanessa surprisingly did more work than me tday.Saw Jane,hahaha,dirty little secret.Pearlyn & Celine left,Vanessa & I had our library talk which was so awesome.Thank you Venesah♥ We should have it every Monday! Left at 5+ and home.Im hungry and there's nothing to eat.Physics tomorrow which means Laava,Kelly & I can sing!Oh damn it,there's test tomorrow >(

2008-01-13T14:47:00.000+08:00

So get back, back, back to where we lasted
Just like I imagined
I could never feel this way
So get back, back, back to the disaster
My heart's beating faster
Holding on to feel the same

Dougie Poynter ♥ won 'Most Fanciable Male' award,twice in a row,he deserves it hands down :D

Its raining heavily,veryvery heavily like no one's business.When I was a kid,I thought when it rain,God was crying for his people,then smart Thana asked 'If like that,God how big ah?' Hahaha! Stupid idiot.Anyway,even though its thunder-ing like insanelymadzomglymad here,my brother's still asleep,but what can I say,he's a pig and he sleeps like a log and like how my Mum would say 'Even though there's a bomb ticking next to him,he'll still sleep thinking its a pillow'.HA-HA!Mum's going to go to work!(: Joy oh Joy!

On a not so very bright note:
I trusted you so much and this is how it ends?I still trusted you although Ive heard things about you & I guess that was one hugezomglyenormous wrong move,dont you think so too?Im so very sad that you will do this to me.Have I done anything wrong? & yes,I know you want the best to happen,but please,this is not the way it should go.Where's your 'I promise' ? It was said by mouth but not your heart.I cant believe you did this to me.Now,I've lost my trust in you,it was from 100% to 0%.Not a single bit of me would even trust you in whatever you do.Even if you said 'I promise' gazillion times,I wouldnt trust you.But,I will pretend this never happens because its no use,I cant do anything about it.Thank you very much for your listening,when I trusted you.

I miss my best,
So fucking much ):

2008-01-12T15:37:00.000+08:00

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see

Im satisfied with the amount of sleep I got.Its going to be Monday in two days time which also means it's Debolah's birthday,sweet Sixteen man :D Oh& it also means Ive got to get started with my pilled up homework waiting for me to touch.I dont like homework,I dont like homework.I dont like smart asses like Celine who can easily finish their homework while people like me are still struggling at the first or second question.F&N on Monday and I loathe it,it sucks,big time.Oh damn it >(

Dinner at some place with family + brother's girlfriend & her sister.She's damn cute,adorable,she eats with both hands and,she still reminds me of Dora even though she cut her hair.She's so small and she talks alot(: Her youngest brother,very adorable,the little kid's picture I posted a few days back,thats him.He hung unto me even though his mother wanted to take him away.He had tears in his eyes.Oh poor kiLittle kids like this makes me smile(: I was tired in the car,but am not now.How very weird.

2008-01-11T20:29:00.000+08:00

TeeGeeEyeEff,
School was alright.Kelly&Laava&I are officially the radio of 4/6'08 :D We're always constantly singing 'Empty' & 'Guardian Angel' & 'CrushCrushCrush',when there are no teacher around.Laava&I are practicing for the Self-Awareness Camp toilet-cleaning day(: English was okay,Mother Tongue was amazing,Bio was very slack,Math was stupid.POA was fun & SS was boring.Oh& Laava,got caught off guard while dancing to 'What time is it' and Mr Jiow came in.HAHAHAHA.I couldnt breathe for 47207402 seconds (: LaavaLaava,Bodyguard<33

Lunch at Macs,Library and meeting after.Stayed till 5 plus and home.Am home now,I need sleep.Im going to wake up late tomorrow,despite all the homeworks I have.I cant stand homework,they should die of horrible death.Oh& Vanessa & I got our water babies &&& zomg,I got Anisa's Polaroid with me.I am now so motivated to save for the film(:

2008-01-10T19:16:00.000+08:00

Spot check tday was stupid,we missed 10-15 mins of Mother Tongue and I love Mother Tongue!(: We got to continue the listening compre story,so we all came up with stupid & means ones.Physics was as per usual my very own free period.Math test wasnt that bad,or so I guess.POA was un-boring & F&N was still and will always be a killer,three straight period of theory,but at least,we had it in the computer lab,but,we had to climb all the way up to the fourth floor and by the second floor,I could just drop,due to muscle aches ):

Bishan,Macs for Lunch with clique-Celine+PearlynLau.Tuition then home.Im yet again dead beat and teegeeeyeeff,tomorrow's Friday!(: I need my sleep(: I shall be declared the smartest girl in the whole wide world,I brought my Bio theory book to school,thinking there's Bio,put it in the locker and went home without it AND I very well have to do homework in it.So Ive got my Bio textbook with me,but no theory book.How very smart.

2008-01-09T22:17:00.000+08:00

Tell me he's the cutestcutest x740274 toodler you've ever seen(:

Yes,he's my 2 year old boyfriend<33

I ran twenty rounds tday.2.4km and 8 rounds for Odac.I didnt grow and I gained 1 kg(: Am surprised thats all I gained despite the fact that I ate like no one's business during the holidays.Supposedly Gym only for Odac since it was raining,the rain stopped and we had to run and Bff&I lead the run.We're so fated lah bff!(: But,Im still very sad I didnt grow and I must hit my 1.73cm target.Studied only Geog&English tday.First half period of geog was boring and sleepy untill the bell rang,I got more awake and went high till the end.English was as per normal.Assembly and spot check tomorrow.Zomggxzx.

Math test tomorrow,accounts tomorrow,f&n tomorrow.Tuition tomorrow,I hate tomorrow.Hello Thursday,I dont like you.Im the I/C for logistics/cleaning comm for self-awareness camp.I'll rather prefer calling it logistics.Thanks eh Vanessa&Debra&Laava for bloodyly sabo-ing me to be in THAT VERY PARTICULAR group.Hah,thanks alot.Laava's my vice-I/C.We plan to sing while cleaning.Hahahah!I love my bloody monkey<33

2008-01-08T21:34:00.000+08:00

School.Bishan.Sugarrrush.Library.Home.Im just too lazy to blog about everything,except for that StellaTay is a typical kiasu Singaporean who rushes for seats like as though sitting on the library floor is a sin or as though she'll die while sitting on the floor.But nevertheless,Thanks beembo for running for the seats and it was so damn comfortable,so much better than sitting on the floor.Hah,contradicting much?(:

Let me ask you,have you said something to someone & then when days past,you realise that you shouldnt have said that and regretted what you asked.Sometimes,I wish I could just connect to God and ask him what's tomorrow about and ask him if all my decisions are right.It would be freaky yet,it would save me from my misery im facing now.Im all mixed up and I hate myself for telling someone to hold on and then,I find myself in a deep hole.I dont know what to do & I dont know what to say & I dont know what I can do and I dont know what I can not do.Im just full of 'I dont know's' and its getting me no where.

2008-01-07T17:10:00.000+08:00

N level coursework question welcomed me in the morning & its been 302740 days since I last sang the school song(: F&N was the first period of the day and it just had to be it.I chose egg question over pulses and legumes.Most people chose eggs,so I guess,I have to fight for my marks.Task Analysis suppose to be done by this Thursday.Oh my good lord.But,I got a letter for parents notifying them that we'll have to use the computer more often for this coursework,only that brighten up my day(: The rest of the day passed so slowly.Ss,Geog,Mt,Recess,English & Math.Weirdly,I had a hard time staying up in English class but was all awake in Math class,I even understood what was taught tday.Lunch at LJS with Best-Stella,library then home.

Thank you PearlynPhua for the Christmas card and Santa soap(: Thank you PearlynLau for the letter that was wrapped in seven papers which gave me a hard time ripping it off and was tapped like no one's business with the words 'Private&Confidential' infront.HA-HA!These little things can make my day but many other things can spoil it with a snap of a finger >( Oh&& Daad brought home two boxes full of Ferrero Rocher and zomgg,he gave me one whole box and zomgg,Im so happy!(: HA-HA!

2008-01-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

Meeting,Lunch,Doodling on Birdnest's school handbook with PearlynPhua while waitng for twin,trained down to Aljunied,Grandma's house,little cousins,helping out,slept over Aunts house,sleeping at 2-3am(Saturday).Waking up at 6am,getting ready,helping out,bride's side house is dang pretty,homework undone,little cousins,grandma's house,home(Tday).So as you can see,Im very lazy to say it all out,so I really summarised it all.Im so superdupertruper dead tired,I need sleep.A good sleep that can make me really sleep till 4pm in the afternoon.I cant wait for this weekend,I need sleep,I swear.Shitzx,N level coursework question tomorrow.

KellynGoh:
Hello Bimbo!Am very sorry I couldnt send you off on Saturday.Have fun in Aussie and take care while you're there.Miss me cause I'll miss you.Come back to Singapore soon and we can all meet up for lunch and dinner.Am going to miss you during Odac,no more nonsense since all you SecFours are gone.Have fun & take care.I'll really miss you ): Come back for DragonBoat Competition alright?(: Bye Bimbo,Miss You,Love You (:

2008-01-04T19:03:00.000+08:00

Happy 50th Dad!(:
-yesterday

Once I receive my N level coursework question,I'll be robbed from my social life.It'll only be the 2nd week of school.I swear,I could have taken Art.Coursework seriously is a torture or a killer or a knife in disguise.I could already feel the stress&pressure weighing upon me.But,we'll get through it in a blink of an eye(i hope),yes Venesah?(:

What I love about school is doing stupid things in class.I loathe boring lessons with boring teachers with monotone voices that weirdly seems like a lullaby to me,it'll put me to sleep.I tried my very best trying to stay awake in English class tday,I hid my face when I yawn,just to prevent the teacher from calling me,but eventually,she did.I dont have Venesah as my partner,which makes lessons far more worst.Writing letters,gossiping behind teachers back,doodling on each other's foolscap is what Ive been up to in classes,Ive not been paying attention and I already need to start.

I drew pretty pictures in crayons and markers tday for MotherTongue.Its dang fun,although it looks like a PrimaryOne kid's drawing,or even they could do better than me.We(Anisa,Fatin& I) came up with ridiculous ideas to end the story & all in all,we thought,three fairies were the main reason why it happened.HA-HA!It wasnt my idea,I only drew.I think crayons makes me happy,it reminds me off when I was younger and didnt know what a sheep looks like.Okay,shut up.HA-HA!(:

Turn around,look at her and see what she's been suffering,
& no,she's not me.She is she.

2008-01-02T21:23:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN ANISA!
I EFFIN LOVE YOU!

For a new start of a school year,I woke up at 6.30AM and had to run around the house like a little mouse running away from a cat.No heater was on so I had to bathe with cold water which left me shivering while walking out of the house.Met Pearlyn&Anisa in the train and I got my Christmas Present from Pearlyn,which is a donkey on a grass in a thingy,which also I had to carry home and people looked at it like as if I had 20 fingers on one hand.But anyway,THANK YOU VERY MUCH BFF! I REALLY LOVE IT! :D School was ohkay,Im pretty statisfied with the teachers I got,at least they're all not the ones I fear.So,I wouldnt hope that she's sick or she feel down the stairs or something so she couldnt make it to class.HA-HA!Mean,I know(: Lunched with Stella&Pearlyn,club to do work(very little) and went back home.Im waiting for what tomorrow has instore for me.

& Celine,Pearlyn & Stella,I really hope you like the present,am sorry it didnt turn out nice.I seriously miss all of you in class,it was dang boring without you all ): I'll really miss you all ): Today was a great start,lets maintain it.I LOVE YOU SO EFFIN MUCH!

2008-01-01T21:59:00.000+08:00

I spend a few hours of my 1/1/08 talking on the phone with Bff&Stella till 5.10AM(: Challenging who could stay up till late night.So we got higher when it was getting later&later.Stella trying really hard to stay awake cause she just refuse to lose & talking nonsense like cutting the moon(?),Pearlyn constantly saying 'I'll win' and singing to th song on th radio,horribly.Untill I suggested we all should just 'die' tgether cause this is getting no where.So we all decided on the time 5.10AM and we all counted down and put down once it struck 5.10.I went to bed and knock off straight away.Thank you for the talk(: I'll see you guys tomorrow! :D Aaah,I love my Bff&BestestBeembo.

School's tomorrow and its 10.06pm now.Ive been waiting since afternoon to use the computer but brother just refuse to let me use.Mum's been asking me to go to bed,it seems like she's more excited that Im going to school than I am.I now CAN wait for school to start,but I cant do anything cause it's just effin tomorrow.Damn it.Homework still undone,screwed much?I aint looking forward to the rest 2008,if its possible,I want 2007 back but then again,its impossible.I cant believe 365 days past me just like that and Im turning 16 soon.Old old old.Talking about being old,Anisa's birthday's tomorrow and fk,I didnt get her the balloon.Sorry babe(:

I'd better get to bed or else I'll be late and I wouldnt want to be late.First impression to being a Sec 4 is very important.I cant wait to see my friends butbutbut,Im just not looking forward to school.End of story.

PEARLYN says:
what u bringing tmr?
Such fragile things says:
Pencil box,presentsxzx(:,foolscap paper
PEARLYN says:
okay i shall bring that too and a bag..so i'll fool the teachers into thinking that i brought books and i cant wait to study

Hah,mean bean.

2008-01-01T02:05:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year!(:

Am currently on the phone with Grace&Bff&Stella(: Counted down with Vanessa & Stella & Grace & Bff,counting down and screaming 'Happy New Year' into the phone in the middle of the night.HA-HA!I didnt go out but I had fun talking to girlfriendzxz(: I ended my 2007 finishing up the presents and I must say,Im pretty statisfied with it.I hope they'll love/like it :D I cant believe school's tomorrow.Tday would be the last to stay up and do things I cant do during school days except for weekends.I guess its back to th normal routine ):

Pearlyn:Eh Nissa,come tomorrow,I want my present,dont think I forget & I want my song
Me:Ohya,I havent write for you your song
Pearlyn:I write already,only that I havent put it on paper
HA-HA!Bestfriend is such an eediot.

2007-12-31T14:33:00.001+08:00

Its the last day of 2007 and I am going to be cliche and write about this year:

Best,4 friends got me through this year,from the beginning of the year till the end.From being just normal friends,to closefriends and now,bestfriends.We had our usual after-school-club studying during the exam periods,our usual lunches after school,our library days after school,walking home together and all that jazz.It'll change next year,it'll definately will,we all wont be in the same class,what we used to do in class this year,will all change next year and we will all have to face it,cause thats reality.But we can still do what we use to do,it's all if we believe each other and if we will still turn to each other.I promise you all from the bottom of my heart,that I'll still be here.This holidays have brought us apart,but we'll make a huge comeback next year yes?(: I EFFIN LOVE YOU GUYS!

Anisa&Fatin,I miss annoying cikgu in class and being assholes,annoying everyone in class with our effin loud voice and constant catch-up gossip during lessons.We'll ace and get an A1(: From after school days at Anisa's house and one day,when all of us just spill everything under the sky and I left with a very light heart.I thank you all and look,we've been threeofus for already 2 years and counting yes?(: I'll still be here for you beetches,forever & ever.We'll also make a huge comeback in MotherTongue class again next year,yes?(: I love you guys like eff.

Odac,Ive never regretted being in this cca.StellaTay has been my partner since it started and we'll still be till SecFive okay?(: We've been through ahlot during the June holidays,travelling to and fro to Kallang,competition,training and our highlight would be the gold medal we received and the tittle we maintained.We couldnt have done it if we all didnt put in any effort.Countless air paddling,push ups,rounds & sets of paddling.We all got through it.I had so much fun with all of you.Every part of the boat,plays and important in winning the race.'There is no I in dragon boat,but there Us'.I effin love Odac and lets try to maintain our tittle next year,we can do it(: Oh& I'll miss the secfours ):

PearlynLau,zomg,you've got this whole post to yourself,how lucky are you man?.Thank you for encouraging me to continue rowing and shouting out to me not to go too fast during the races.You're a great partner & bestfriend(: Your stupid endless jokes make me laugh during training so much.Thank you BFF!(: Oh& thanks also for the mrt ride home and playing 'I spy' in the train that got me smiling to myself all the way home cause I cant figure out 'car'.I'll be looking forward to playing 'I spy'.Thank you BFF!(:

GraceGoh,you've been there for me ever since my lonely days in Sec 2.You were there for me through it all,from when I turned to you till the end of day.You've been such a great help.We're still close,I can say.You're like seriously a great help.You understands me ahlot.I friggin thank you for everything you've did for me.I'll still be here for you,1 year and counting.Thank you so much for everything you've did for me.Seriously.

This year's been great.Those 8/cca people are people I'll treasure most and keep deepdeep in my heart(: Vanessa,I hope I can seat with you again in class next year.Celine,I hope you will still be able to help me in my studies,Stella,I hope you'll still be the bestestbeembo whose ego is sky high and make me laugh with your beemboness & Pearlyn,I hope you'll still be the kiss stealer and make me laugh with your blurness.I hope all four of you will stay just the way you are,I'll really miss you three(excluding Vanessa since she's in my class) and I hope we'll still be as close as ever.I love every single one of you veryvery much(:

2008,please dont be a beetch year(:

2007-12-30T15:04:00.000+08:00

Last night/early morning,when most of you are either sleeping,or still awake or outside,I was at home,laughing my ass of at my 23&20 year old brothers who were challenging each other,who could kill the flying beetle with crutches and folded magazine.They look ridiculously ridiculous jumping around and laughing,I predicted,if I was from far,it'll seemed like the were jumping for no reason,talking about sugarrrush(: HA-HA! & even though the beetle was dead,that poor beetle was made as a ball and the folded magazine as a bat.Poor losers couldnt hit it.HA-HA!(: Yes,I grow up in a crazy house with crazy people doing crazy things no matter what time it is.

I am currently really bored.I went out with family to Amk hub to walk around,supposedly Dhoby Ghaut but we were all tired & lazy and it was going to rain,so we settled for Amk hub.I went to develop pictures & went eenteeuusee to get grocery's and do you know,grocery shopping are like one of the best because I find it fun and in my family,we each have a role.Mum pushes the trolley and get what she needs,Dad pays and get what he needs.My brothers & I take whatever we want and dump it in the trolley.We siblings have such fun role.At the end of the day,we end up struggling carrying the bags home.

I bought jelly yesterday and taught of making it for Pearlyn&Stella as their present,thinking that Mum would allow me to go meet them,but oh,Mum dosent allow.She's got some problem,I think she's having post-period syndrome or something.Somedays she ask me if I would want to go shopping,the next day,she goes all screaming at me cause I havent wash my school shoes and blahblahblah.Now,it's 3.5/4 of me cant wait to get back to school,so I would escape from the screamings at home & next year,she's going to work & she promised me a laptop & that made my day yesterday(: HA-HA! Back to the story,while cooking,I remembered the time when we were at Pearlyn's house.Celine and I made jellies in the kitchen,Stella&Vanessa was dancing to 'Everyday' & 'All For One' of HSM2 and Pearlyn was in the room & zomgg,Pearlyn's grandma taught their dance was entertaining.I find it funny cause they look like complete idiots.Talking about this makes me miss it all so much ): Oh& zomgg,Bestflend's back! Omgomgomg,she's back,I missed you ohso much!

This post is a total nuisance,if you read all that,tell me,I'll give you a pat on your back(: Hah.

2007-12-29T02:10:00.001+08:00

I believe in you like how a kid would believe in toothfairy and keep their tooth under their pillow and wish upon a star for what they want,I believe in you like how a kid would believe fairytales and tell their Mum that one day,they're going to be what they see on tv,I believe in you like how a friend should believe in one another,believing that they'll be there for each other whenever and whatever happens & when even if the whole world turns their back against one of them,I believe in you so much,that I cant bare to see you crash and burn like that.Whats more,Ive not been seeing you and talking to you for 43289224 days and counting.I dont know how you're feeling right now,but what you wrote made me cry because I know Ive not been a good friend, my 'I'll be there for you',did not disappear into thin air,no,it did not,Im still here for you,only that I did not make the effort to talk to you or even write a message to you asking you to hang out.That text made me feel happy because I know that you will still turn to me.Things will get harder next time,but promise me,we will be what we were when we were in school,because,I promise you that.I miss you & I love you Pearlyn Phua,please dont be sad,cheer up big time(:

I swear to god,3/4 of me already cant wait for school to re-open because this holidays have been pulling me away from my friends and its just pure torture.Hello Earthlings,although Ive said it so many times,Ive still yet to get my school books.Screwed much?Okay,not like the first day of school,we'll need books or something.2008 timetable sucks,but what,the school's going to change it again & prolly,give us a suckier one,so I wont be surprised.I miss beembo,kool bean,kiss stealer & bestflend so much!

2007-12-28T13:16:00.001+08:00

So,My Mum's pissed at me tday cause I woke up 'very late'(according to her) and I refuse to go get my school books.Its funny when she gets angry,cause she'll find any possible way to scold me like 'Go clean your room' or whatsnot.But still,I being a normal teenager like any other will switch off my hearing system and only sees her mouth moving.Nice try mother,nice try.

Oh&,let me ask you,was it my dream or did I really hear on 98.7FM a few days back that the Dinosaurs are coming back to live.(HAHAHAHAHA!)I woke up thinking about it and I cant rmber if it REALLY was on the radio or it was just my dream.I had trouble sleeping that night and I wonder if I was half-asleep or fully awake and what I heard was right.I swear,its freaking me out.

& then,the bestestbeembo make sense
Million & One Reasons says:
But zomgg lah,Idk if its my dream or not
Prestigious\ says:
I think it is. How can dinosaurs come back? Like that, i think it will be in news & everywhere already

/EDIT/
Went out with Family at night,when Bishan but brother cant get his camera cause of some paybill/paycheck thingy that we didnt bring or something.Dinnered at JalanKayu and headed down to Mustafa Centre,walked around and left with 3 dvds(: & zomg,taxi fares are so expensive,am I slow or am I just in time to realise it?HA-HA!

2007-12-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best I miss my best

WHERE'S MY BEST?

2007-12-25T21:07:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas!(:
Lets all get in th mood of green&red colours.HA-HA!(:

Referring to th mannequin
Cousin:Oh,I think the people got frozen

A scene where he killed himself with a grenade
Twin:Omg,did he die?

Someone scream 'smart' now.We were th noisiest 4 in th cinema,as usual.I Am Legend,is a go-watch show,BUT,you'd take sometime to understand th plot cause there's a twist in th story,its not like any other story.Home after movie,parents&brothers are out at Bishan.Brother wants to get th Nikon/Canon D40x camera,like as if he's a good photographer,planning to take up lessons & zomgg,I wanna take it up too!HA-HA!(: Okay,I need to get school books and mentally prepare myself.School's starting sooooon ):

HelloPearlynPhua(:
Dont be sad okay?Im here for you.Its not your fault,it really isnt.He's being unreasonable now,he cant possibly do that.If he's angry at you for a long time,he dosent know you & he dosent trust you considering you've told him th truth.Im here for you Pearlyn(: I dont want to see a frown on your face,I want to see a beautiful smile,cause you make me smile when you smile.I'll see you soon & Ily & Imy Pearlyn!(:

Hello VanessaWee(:
You stupid woman,its not your fault too.Its on impulse.You should go up and tell him th truth.Truth always helps,okay,maybe not.But you know,it happened to me too,it was on impulse.I regretted sososo much after that and I suffered sososo much too.I dont want that to happen to you cause it happened to me.It sucks,dont regret.We all make mistakes.It'll happen again,Im sure.& DONT SAY IT WONT HAPPEN,I'LL SMACK YOU(: Ily & Imy too Vanasah!(:

2007-12-24T13:08:00.000+08:00

I slept extra early yesterday since my nose decided to be a bitch,I had trouble sleeping,but after I dose off,I got calls from cousin on my house phone & handphone,after that phonecall,I took around 15 mins to get back to sleep & I realise,for this past few days,Ive been woken up by phonecalls after phonecalls.Tday,Ive been woken up by Pearlyn's phonecall.Going to meet her&birdnest for lunch at Bishan.Then,heading down to CityHall to meet cousin and off to go cut my hair and then,prolly meeting Mum at Tampines Mall for shopping,I guess.Oh,what a day,but beats staying home.

Oh& its already Christmas Eve,how time flies.Which also means,school's starting.Part of me cant wait & part of me can wait.I cant wait to see all my friends & morning train rides & assembly & PE & fun lessons but part of me so totally can wait for homeworks,exams,teachers,getting into trouble & N level coursework.Damn it.

/EDIT/
Hair cutting,Cousin's house,Parkway Parade,Changi beach,Home at 3.Hair's a screw up,shutup.Dad wanted to go carolling.HA-HA!(: